I’m constantly trying to better myself. I struggled with a lack of confidence and direction growing up, and it made it difficult for me to pursue things that I loved or to take chances in life. I missed out on a lot of different events and friendships throughout high school and college because of anxiety and not living in the present. I was definitely one of those high schoolers that always thought about how great life would be once I was an adult or once I could see and do different things. Unfortunately, there was always something in my head that prevented me from taking the next step to accomplish all of the goals and dreams that I had.
I’m really proud of how far I’ve come in the last 10 years, but more specifically in the last 5 years. I wasn’t in a great place when I graduated college. I had a degree in something that I loved (French), but I had no idea how to apply it into a career. I desperately wanted to move to France, but the idea of going that far on my own scared me to death. I had just broken up with a long time boyfriend and I felt unsure of what I should be doing with my life.
Fast forward to getting my first job out of college. I stocked over night in a grocery store, but I met my husband and will always be grateful that I took that job and it enabled me to have a beautiful family. What I’ve learned over the past 5 years is that being confident in your own skin and really sticking to what you believe in is incredibly important. What I’m proud of is that instead of being stuck in my head with all of the “what if’s?” and talking about doing things, I’ve been able to actually do them. I left a job that I had for 4 years, that really just messed with my head. It made me rethink my priorities, my beliefs, and myself. I didn’t like the person that I was becoming or the way that I had started to view life. I’m proud that I was able to get control of my thoughts and decide to pursue a career in something that I actually believe in and that makes me feel more like myself again. Nothing is perfect, but more doing and less talking about doing has really been my motto for the past year. I’ve been able to accomplish a lot more and seek out new things. I’m the most confident that I’ve ever been in my life, but not without continually learning and growing each day. I’m thankful that I have a truly supportive husband that will let me go through this learning process and be able to get my head wrapped around all of my thoughts. My continual existential crisis hasn’t scared him off yet, and I’m glad that he decided to take this ride with me. I hope that in another year I’ll be able to talk about more exciting things that I’ve accomplished by doing and not just thinking about doing it.
So, what are you proud of?